I can blend in and follow and feel a part of, but somehow the call from my heart always leads me elsewhere.
It always has.
I feel the draw from the deeper places to move away from the expected and popular -- to follow a different path altogether. But this calling means risking and stepping away. What they do is predictable, promising a given outcome if I do what is expected.
Still, I can't hush the other voice which asks me to listen and be what I was made to be: something unique, someone who is now and will not be ever again. I hear the call to make my mark, however small, but to do it with courage and to stay the course. I could easily give in and succumb to the "way it is done." I could hang with the others and know that there is fellowship and camaraderie in their presence. Yet, if I choose that way, the way of the crowd, I am killing off this other part of myself - the part which is unique and must walk according to the deeper call.
Every arena of life has its norms, protocols and expectations. This is how it is done. If I am to write successfully, I must do A, B, C. To be a good home educator, you do X, Y, Z. To be a good Christian you serve here, pray at this time, talk this way, go to this church. God knows. He is the Author of the deeper call. He has wooed me from my early years to step away from the crowd. Jesus loved the crowd, but the crowd never defined Him and it never owned Him.
Dear Lord, help me to walk in the deeper way and follow the call to be the one you made me to be -- only me, following only You, doing the unexpected and getting the results You would have for me.
Linking with Five-Minute-Friday (for the spontaneous prompt: "Crowd")
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